broken sundown fatherless showdown

I usually wont confuse the two but j'ai deux amants. In a way, this is a perfect way to heal. I'm not saying my conditon is healthy but, I will manage. I always have. Amour has fucked me in the ass to many times I almost wished I wasn't concieved. Then the world would be missing out on so much, moi. He hasn't called anymore, he's swoon over a new hot flame and
I'm not even mad. Should I be? I'm still that baddest female in the club, your block, school wherever. Looking back I don't recall use having mutual intrest, other than sex and yet I our minds were apart while engaged in that. Man candies will come and go but when you find your Lennon and Ono you'd better not let go. Time won't get hard, loving will become sronger and you wont crave as much because of the amount of trust, respect, and love you'll have for that person.
I am not ready to settle down. I procastinate, I bitch and I moan, I'm completely nonchalant, and I'm selfish. Not great qualities but if you cannot deal with them at all times then by all means, find me someone who will. Not now though, as I initially wrote, I aint gonna settle. It's amazing how many guys want you when you're taken, but as soon as you're available they're in reverse. Not looking but I'm observant and I've noticed its a countless amount of times. The girls with a guy and at her best the other guys want her, the girl and guy breaks up and at her best again the other guys ignore her. Classic scenario. Can I be a bachlorette with children?...
Notice how things in a relationship change because of either insecurities, time, location. All of a sudden wherever you've traveled to for the past 4 years is to long of a commut or to far a distance for you to go any longer. Guys are so simple it's extemely useless to waste time on them, but the females need to loosen up and not stress over so much. I guess thats why im single now because of my "brush it off" nonchalant attitude I never leave home without. Men build up insecurities, the only thing we (YES WE!) need to do is stroke their ego's. Honestly, they're ego's are they're only form of protection, if their ego is bruised so is their skin their wardrobe their aura. Keep their ego's unscathed and lasting long wont be an issue, but do you really and I mean REALLY want only to please him. Make him so secure he's blind. I believe with every relationship, where trust is an issue, you should tell that other person to learn to trust themselves, and I, trust in no man says the Lord trust in me i am the Lord, I believe in that, so trusting me and trusting you is an issue.
We'll get in to that at another time though. But relationships aren't hard man, Just maintaing a long lasting one, where everyone is happy is hard. But it'll get worst, you just gotta roll with the punches and give in alot of the time. I'm tired of giving in, because I never did and when I opportunity arrises I don't take advantage and drop te issue, i let it fester and then bring it up again in the future. I always need closure. Thats my issue. Even now with my 143 I need closure. Soon though... not strong enough now. Both amants are not and will never be prepared for things that I bring up, and things I'm about, and I love them for that. Because they're willing to change me, because they care that much about what it is I'm doint at every minute, even when I'm lying, is what keeps me sane. I swear I'd be an empty vessle walking if I didnt have my amants(lovers). I can care for myself, I'm self reliant. I dont advise anyone else to be as dependable on me and I am with myself. Don't forget how selfish I am.


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roll of thunder hear my cry

my Creativity has escaped. i had her locked within my palms, safe from harm, and at that time a lock and key was to drastic for little Creativity. but she escaped from my palms. because at that time there was only me and noone else to take her. there was only me and no competition. there was only me and noone around to "borrow" her. my Creativity is lost. i.. i let her out in hope for her return, fresh and new with a totally new outlook on life. hopeless dreams and aspirations. she must have slipped between the cracks of my fingers. or rolled off my finger tips. because we we're inseperable.

i long for her now. i hear her weep sometimes, the way she used to when i wasn't using enough of her. my Creativity, i miss her. she had the craziest ideas all the time, from haircuts to missing limbs. i swear if you find her... return her.

hear my plea.